Lighthouse

by Susan Cowsill

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about

Internationally critically acclaimed sophomore release by Susan Cowsill on the non-profit Threadhead Records organization.

Austin Chronicle: "Cowsill works hard polishing her latest, the critically lauded Lighthouse. As full of loss and sentiment as it is joyful and persevering, Lighthouse beckons listeners to Cowsill’s homey cove." -Margaret Moser

Rolling Stone: "...an earthy, often crunchy folk-pop gem. But Cowsill has a supple survivor’s alto, and it runs like a sturdy lifeline through the silken dreaming in “Dragon Flys,” her hard-soul resolve of “Could This Be Home” and especially the gospel-rock liftoff in “River of Love,” written by her brother Barry, who perished in Katrina, and sung by Susan with a heavy heart and sweet memory in the same deep breaths." -David Fricke

Huffington Post: "...Every song is a highlight. ...This work of art is akin to musical cinema." - Georgianne Nienaber

St. Louis Beacon: "...all the songs on “Lighthouse” seem to capture the essence and energy of life – with its ups and downs, its pain and joy."

Blurt Best 50 CDs of 2010: "The songs on Lighthouse are guided by two themes – loss and hope. Both have been a part of music since the beginning, but Susan Cowsill (formerly of the family band the Cowsills) taps into some pretty weighty experiences for inspiration. Cowsill and her band have the power to their conviction and they pull it off."

Americana UK: "‘Lighthouse’ makes it abundantly clear that Susan Cowsill is a song writer of some talent. She has made an album of great beauty, out of personal tragedy, that serves as a fitting tribute to those she has lost."

Suite 101: "She's taken some of the most personal subjects possible and written an album of excellent songs. ..Though personal, these songs are universal in their appeal. The sense of loss, the uncertainty, the optimism - these are things that everyone experiences."

Sonic Boomers: "Lighthouse is a beacon of inspiration for a woman, a city and mostly for all of us."

Twangville: "...On lighthouse her hope is fueled by a strong will and determination. She is not buying into naive hope, but it is a real hope rebirthed from tragedy. Instead of turning bitter she is ready to put the top down on the convertible and drive into the future."

Country Chart: "Susan Cowsill has one of the most wonderfully unique female voices in music today. ...Susan Cowsill has created an understated musical masterpiece with her heartfelt album 'Lighthouse.'"

Living Life Boomer Style: "Cowsill's optimism and spirituality have always been her way of overcoming the dark times and with her natural talent and hard work ethic, she has created some of the greatest songs ever collected on one album."

Uncommon Music: "It’s not a collection of songs specifically for those who were affected by the hurricane, but for anyone who has ever experienced tragedy or
battled adversity."

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released May 18, 2010

Recorded at Dockside Studio, Maurice, LA. Additional recording done at Groove Masters, Santa Monica, CA & The Music Shed, New Orleans, LA

Produced by Russ Broussard, Susan Cowsill, Michael Mayeux, & Mike Costanzo
Engineering by:
Dockside: M.Mayeux, M.Costanzo, & assistant Korey Richey
Groove Masters: Bil Lane & assistant Rich Tosi
Music Shed: M. Mayeux & Kyle Lamy
Mixed by Bil Lane & assistant Glenn Suravech at Groove Masters
Mastered by Gavin Lurssen & assisted by Reuben Cohen at Lurssen Mastering

Artwork: Skeet Hanks at Hotel Romeo Design
Photo credits: Barbara Cowsill/Cezanne Wish Nails/Skeet Hanks (cover); Dennis Gardner (back cover & live shots); Robley Dupleix (all the rest).

Musicians:
Susan Cowsill, Russ Broussard, Aaron Stroup, Tad Armstrong, Janson Lohmeyer, Jimmy Robinson, Pete Winkler, Sam Craft, Jack Craft, Alex McMurray, Jackson Browne, Waddy Wachtel, Bob Cowsill, Paul Cowsill, John Cowsill, Vicki Peterson

Publishing:
Susan Cowsill: CoCo Bunny Music, admin. by Bug Music, BMI
Russ Broussard: Being Heard Music, admin. by Bug Music, BMI
Tad Armstrong: Handshake Deal Publishing, ASCAP
Barry Cowsill: Moonstorm Publishing, admin. by Bug Music, ASCAP
Jimmy Webb: Jobete Music Co, Inc


Management: Terry Ford, tford4637@yahoo.com
Bookings: Lizzy Bilyeu, lizzybilyeu@gmail.com
Legal representation: Greg Eveline, geveline@edp.nocoxmail.com
Publicity: Cary Baker’s conqueroo
Visit us at susancowsill.com, myspace.com/susancowsill, facebook, reverbnation.com/susancowsill
To make donations or loans for other projects by us and other NOLA artists, www.threadheadrecords.org

Gratitude list:
Terry Ford for your support, ideas, enthusiasm, & honesty. All you Threadheads & fans that donated or loaned us money for this project--without y’all and Terry, there would be no Lighthouse. Jackson Browne for coming to our rescue once again. You are an angel & a true friend. Bil Lane—a mixing god. Our masterminding team of Terry, Tim & Terrin Cohn, Georgianne Nienaber, John & Vicki Cowsill, Chris Gerstner, Cameron Smith, Mitch Ulrich, Scott Schinder. Nick & Miranda—always. The NOLA village of Nina & Poppa, Momma Maria & Father “Padre” Michael, Ms. Maria, Dr. Harry, Lisa & Yalcin, Karen & Joe, Aunt Kelly, Uncle Kent & Aunt Jules. Rick & Rob for You & Me Baby. Johnny & Linda Franklin—life-long friends can be found after 40! Thanks BSG, for helping us with the “piano song.” Peter & Sarah for their love & support. Mom & Dad, y’all are the best.

Special thank you to those who had us as “treasured guests” after Katrina:
Sonny, Pat & Sally, Tim & Terrin, Johnny & Linda, Fred & Kelly, David,Valerie, & Justin, Steven & Christopher, Brian & Wanda, Steve & Wish, Judy, Cameron, Denby & Kerry, & John & Vicki for giving Miranda a place to call home. And to all those who gave or gathered money to keep us going post K—we couldn’t have made it without you.

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Track Name: Dragon Flys
I remember you jumping on my bed
I remember you ‘round the corner
I remember you everything you said
I remember you
When I remember you
I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys

I got a wine glass in my pocket
And I got this guitar slinging off of my hip
Things are getting blurry
Still I can see what I wanna see
Staring at a cloud staring right back at me
I can still look you in the eye

When I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys
I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys

When you knocked on my door I answered
And all the while your’re pretending that I’m not home
Well I gave you my number
It was the ending of summer
I can still look you in the eye (and I ain’t lyin’)

When I see dragon flys
Little dragon flys
I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys
Whoa I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys
Yeah I see dragon flys
Pretty little dragon flys

It was the ending of summer
Track Name: Avenue of the Indians
I can still hear the sounds of hammers
Echoing through the woods
As I stand in someone’s driveway
Where our trees and tree forts stood
I can taste the yellow flowers
Bittersweet upon my tongue
On the Avenue of the Indians
One for all and all for one

On the shores of childhood mystery
We signed our names in blood
We pledged our voices to the wind
Our loyalty to the sun
And the days ran on forever
‘Til we heard her whistle blow
On the Avenue of the Indians
Buried deep inside our souls

Ready or not here I come
Olly all and free come on everyone

Come to the water
One for all, one by one
When will they call you
No one knows….ain’t this fun

Every curtain’s coming to a close
Every story has its end
I will never say goodbye to you
Just a fair thee well my friend
I won’t worry how to find you
‘Cause I know just where you’ll be
On the Avenue of the Indians
Where we’ll set our spirits free

Mason Dixon Line, anyone
I can hear him coming everybody run
Oh everybody run
Track Name: Sweet Bitter End
Sittin’ listening to Tom Tom with a storm creeping in
This old world’s gotta veil that is so damn thin
I can see it through the wipers I can feel it in my bones
It’s the loneliness of living makes me feel like I’m home

Well I don’t know so much but I can say for sure
That if dying is an illness I wanna find a cure
I wanna spend my days rolling in the grass
Counting blade after blade how long could I last?

It’s true I’ve got my limits
I never break but I bend
I’m gonna live it ‘til the sweet bitter end
I wanna live it ‘til the sweet bitter end

I never really ever thought those old trees would die
I think I’m gonna put my money on the sky

Watching the love that’s taken from us and the babies being born
The rug’s ripped out from under never ever being warned
I wanna spend my days rolling in the grass
Counting blade after blade how long would I last?

And it’s true I got my limits
I never break but I bend
And I’m gonna live it ‘til the sweet bitter end
I’m gonna save it ‘til the sweet bitter end
I wanna live it ‘til the sweet bitter end
Track Name: You and Me Baby
Mardi Gras on the breeze
At the end of the day
You swing on that tire
It’s so easy you say
Far away in a land
Green and covered by trees
Just you and me baby
Doing just as we please

Well I had a dream
Wasn’t so long ago
If you hadn’t come true
Well I never would have known
That angels are real
And it’s magic they bring
‘Cause you and me baby
We can do anything

The sunshine’s your laughter
The stars are your tears
The moon’s for your wishes
The night time’s your fears
The sky is your heart
And the river’s your soul
You see I carry you with me
Wherever I go

You and me and that old oak tree
Together we’ll always be

In your dreams
Remember the streets
Of golds and purples and greens

When you stare out your window
At the end of the day
When the sunshine fades to moonlight
Let your heart drift away
And remember the days
Green and covered by trees
Just you and me baby
Doing just as we please
Doing just as we please
Just you and me baby
Track Name: River of Love
She had to leave me
Said she had some place to go
I knew her heart was searching for its home
So what’s to do when you let go of flying falcons
Except to watch them disappear ‘til there are no more

And as she flew well I called out
And I knew she heard her lover shout
‘Cause she tipped her wings before the fade

Oh the sun may set yet another day
I’ll be there for the rising one
And maybe it’s true you’ve gone away
But I’ll be waiting by the River of Love
I’ll be waiting by the River of Love

The heart’s a funny thing
Sometimes it never shakes
What happened to that friend that went before
And it may ponder it may wander ‘til it finds
Love’s secret phone to call upon that soul

And just sometimes you never know
You may be dreaming but you feel aglow
And you hope one day she will return

Chorus

Another day goes rolling through my heart
As if it was another empty cup
And though I’ve wandered through these fields I’ve known before
I will never give up ‘til I see you again
I may never give up at all

And so I will take my precious time to hang around
And I’ll count the beats of my heart one by one
And even if it’s just some silly game I’m playing
Deep down I know it isn’t just for fun

‘Cause when there’s a will then there’s a way
And if I have to kneel and pray
Then I’ll kneel here and pray away

Chorus

We criticized you
We recognized you
I memorized you
And I eulogized you
I loved you more than you’ll ever know
Man I hated to see you go

I’ll be waiting by the River of Love
Track Name: Could This Be Home
I look around this town and I can’t feel
There’s something wrong we lost the song
And this is way too real
This is the only place I’ve ever belonged
And now it’s gone
And I wanna go home

There used to be a lot of things that I could see
Most of the time they were right in front of me
But, this one’s hiding very well amongst the trees
And that’s alright with me
Could this be home

I don’t pretend to know where all the flowers grow
I just know

The way the wind comes sweeping through the valley here
Its quiet swirlings music to my ear
And I can take a break away from my breaking heart
And that’s a place to start
This could be home

Well, all you gotta do is look at me and I can do the rest
Your faith in me and who you see it takes away my breath
And I never thought I could climb a mountain quite so high
And that is why
With you I’m always home

Well I don’t pretend to know where all the flowers grow
I just know
I don’t pretend to know where all our sorrow goes
I just know
When we are home
Track Name: Lighthouse
Far away when I was young
Outside my window straight through dawn
Past the miles of rolling grass
Across the water made of glass

A beacon of light
Shines all through the night
Just for me

It’s always there it guides my way
No matter where I roam
Through dreams of pirate ships that take me
Far away from home

Out there on the sea
Where all of us will be
Calling look for me follow me

I’ll take you home
Put your heart in my hand
And know that you’re not alone
I’ll never ever ever
Leave you out in the cold
Out in the cold

I set out on this lonesome ride
And I did it on my own
Searching for a million years
For where do I belong

But always deep in the night
I could still feel the light
Look for me, follow me
My lighthouse
My lighthouse
Track Name: The Way That It Goes
And the way that it goes
While you’re dreaming your dreams
You gotta keep on your toes
If you know what I mean
And when the ceiling is on the floor
And you can’t seem to find the door
And the telephone rings
That’s just the way that it goes

And while you’re making your plans
And you’re scheming your schemes
Just remember that life isn’t all that it seems
When you’re willing to risk it all
And the closing of Winter calls
Don’t expect an early Spring

Because the truth is you never know
When the grass will turn green
And if the season is extra long
You’re gonna need lots of seed
You’re gonna need lots of seed
You’re gonna need lots of seed
‘Cause that’s the way that it goes

Seasons come and seasons go
Life goes on and on, you know you know
It’s what we do while we’re here
That matters when we go
‘Cause that’s the way that it goes
That’s the way that it goes

So when you follow your heart
You gotta keep up your chin
It’s the road that we’re on
Not the place where it ends
And there’s always another way
And there’s always a Summer’s day
And Fall to come again

Because the truth is we never know
When the grass will turn green
And if the season is extra long
You’re gonna need lots of seed
‘Cause the truth is you never know
When the grass will turn green
And if the season is extra long
Gonna need lots of seed
Gonna need lots of seed
Gonna need lots of seed

‘Cause that’s the way that it goes
That’s the way that it goes
That’s the way that it goes
You’re gonna need lots of seed
Gonna need lots of seed
Track Name: ONOLA
Oh New Orleans
You will always be my city
I will always be your daughter
The Saints are smiling down on us tonight
Oh New Orleans
I feel so free just standing here
The Mississippi whispering in my ear
Clouds are rolling over us tonight
I came back to wipe your tears
And I’m proud to hold your hand
There’s only so much anyone could stand

Oh New Orleans
I’m growing weaker everyday
I no longer have the strength to stay
I don’t even want the chance to fight the fight
But I don’t know where to go
Maybe some place I could see some snow
So far away from here they’ll never know

There’s a hole inside my heart I don’t want you to see
You’ve given me so much I only wanna give some back you see
So I’m leaving here today I’m no good to anyone this way
I’ve gone to save my soul and then I promise you that I’ll be back again

Or maybe I could find another way
Or maybe I’ll just fall asleep
And when I come back
I’ll find it’s just a dream
Just a dream
A real bad dream
A terrible dream

Oh New Orleans
Guess that’s all that I have left to say
No need to pack she took it all away
But I’ll take with me the world I used to know
I’ll remember that I’m still your child
Carry your music each and every mile
And I’ll be back when my heart learns how to smile again
Until then

Chorus

Or maybe I could find another way
Track Name: Galveston
Galveston, oh Galveston
I still hear your sea winds blowin’
I still see her dark eyes glowin’
She was twenty one when I left Galveston

Galveston, oh Galveston
I still hear your sea waves crashin’
While I watch the cannons flashing
I clean my gun and I dream of Galveston

I still see her standing by the water
Standing there looking out to sea
And is she waiting there for me
On the beach where we used to run

Galveston, oh Galveston
I am so afraid of dying
Before I wipe the tears she’s crying
Before I watch your seabird flying in the sun
At Galveston
At Galveston
Track Name: Real Life
Much too much time on my hands
Not enough time in the day just to be who I am
Maybe I’ll walk on the wire
Maybe I’ll swallow some fire today
Or walk in the snow with no shoes on, you know
On the coldest of cold winters’ days

‘Cause sometimes real life can be
Much too much grown up for me
And sometimes real life can be
A beautiful place that you never ever wanna leave

I think I’ll study the rain
See if it’s true what they say about Spain
And the rain on the plain
And just what kind of plain do they mean?
Track Name: Crescent City Sneaux
I feel like a kite without a string
Only my tail to guide me
Just paper and sticks and tattered sheets
Waiting on a friendly wind
Hold all our memories in one hand
So tight that you won’t let ‘em go
And in the other hand we pray
That the wind and the panic and the rain
Would all turn to a soft and quiet snow

A long time ago when I was young
I used to know everything
Now it’s today and I am sure
That I don’t know anything at all

Holding all our memories in one hand
So tight that you won’t let ‘em go
And in the other hand we pray
That the wind and the panic and the rain
Would all turn to a soft and quiet, gentle peaceful snow

Oh when dem Saints come marching in
I’ll be walking to New Orleans
I’ll be eating beignets at Du Monde
Singing Joni at the Carrollton Station
I’ll be hanging out in Jackson Square
Twelve o’clock I’ll meet you there
I’ll be down on Frenchman with Big Chief
Trying to find a place to eat
Tailgating at the Dome
Man I can’t wait to go home

All our precious hearts were all shattered
Scattered across the land
But I knew that I was going back
To a place where I know who I am

Holding all our memories in one hand
So tight that you wont ever ever ever let ‘em go
And in the other hand we pray
That the wind and the panic and the rain
Would all turn to a soft and quiet, gentle peaceful
N.O.L.A.
Crescent City Snow

It is three a.m. at the Circle Bar
Where the hell did we park that car?
Yeah and it’s six a.m. at the Christmas Lounge
Man, we got a hell of a town
A town where your Grandma tells my Grandma
While they’re sitting by a fire
And we will all go down to the Audubon Zoo
And they’ll all ask for you

They’ll all be singing
Who Dat Who Dat
Who Dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints
Who Dat Who Dat
Oh, when dem Saints come marchin’ in
Oh, when dem Saints come marchin’ in
Yeah when dem Saints come marchin’ in
Oh, when dem Saints come marchin’ in
They’ll all be singing
Who Dat Who Dat
Who Dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints
Singing Who Dat Who Dat
Ohhhhhhhhh
What What What Yeah Yeah Saints!